Friday, January 18, 2013

heart vs. head

I am in the middle of a war. Yes, WAR! Not guns and killing type war although at times it feels like that. But a war between my heart and my head. Has this kind of war ever happened to anyone? I am almost positive that answer is yes, I know I can't possibly be all by myself on this one. It's like they don't connect at all. The string that connects my heartbeat to my brain has been frayed... it seems as though it's not able to send any kind of signal. How do you come to peace with this type of war? Who wins? Is there a right and wrong in this situation? These questions run through my head every day and finding the answer just seems almost impossible. Maybe it is a decision you have to make an individual, just pick one and run with it. Let's say I follow my head, I mean I am a pretty smart girl and common sense should kick in. I tell myself what I want to feel everyday and eventually after time I do start to feel it? Then my head wins, but what if my heart decides it really doesn't want to follow. Does that pain in my heart ever heal up and jump on board with my bossy brain? Let's say for argument sake, I choose to not use my brain and I follow my heart. I am a right brained person as it is; full of passion, creative and of course emotional. I decide to follow my heart (which is usually the way I go) and I do what makes my heart happy. Does my brain follow along as well? Will my common sense and what I think is the "right" thing to do start to understand my passionate heart and they become at peace finally? I feel this way about a couple of things in my life right now. Taking risks has been something that seems to not scare me as much as it used too, and taking these risks has lead me to new things in life and it has also lead me back to what I have known but been scared to go back. Maybe while I am working on being selfish I could work on putting the war between my brain and my heart at piece! 


Anonymous said...

I am going through this right now. My heart tells me you are doing the right thing and that this is all part of God's plan but my brain tells me do not put up with the non-sense, make your voice and feelings be heard, so of course when I do that and give in I end up feeling worse and my heart broken even more. Right now, I am trying to leave it all up to God day by day. He is the only one that can help us through this "war" we have going on. This is my cling to verse right now "You will find me, says the Lord, when you seek Me with all your heart" Jeremiah 29:13...

Gentri said...

I totally know what you're going through. Right now, I'm in the middle of UCK. But I'm trying to prepare for when that yuckyness is over and I have no idea what I will do.
You look beautiful though! I love this outfit!

Ashley said...

Definitely know what you're going through. Heart vs. head matters are the toughest and sometimes you end up just stuck in the middle not knowing what to do!

Jen said...

These are the toughest situations to navigate through. Everything will work out.

Heather said...

So you said you wanted to be selfish this year. I think that means it is time that you pick for only you. When I have been in this situation, I just did what felt good in my gut, how would I have handled this as a child. ( that may sound silly but that's when we hear our own needs). If you are not at peace and happy with your own life, you will never be able to help others. Whether it is helping financially or spiritually,or emotionally, you have to be of sound heart and mind first. (Sorry for the long post, I felt it was something I had to share) hope you see through these times and stay true to your beautiful self.

Ashlyn | Let It Be Beautiful said...

Oh twin, I am so sorry you are going through such a tough time right now. call me I am here for you!


Why Girls Are Weird said...

Ugh, this is so tough. I'm usually a "go with my heart" kind of girl. But sometimes that can get you into trouble!

Unknown said...

oh so pretty!!!!:)love it!

Because Shanna Said So said...

Oh lady bug!!! We need to catch up!!! I have so been in your shoes!! It is such a tough to battle. Give it over to God and then that might make it seem more bearable on you. Hang in there!! Love u!!

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